WOW, well time has just flown by. It seems like summer was just a blink of the eye ago, but I guess it's been a bit longer than that ;-) I know I've been MIA, but I'm not out of commission. I've been playing plenty with my special subs, but lately, I just haven't felt like sharing. Probably because when I share I get an influx of e-mail or instant messages from men who want to play, and to be perfectly honest, there just isn't enough hours in the day for me to see anymore of you. I think I'm quite set with my "regulars" & then my family.
I'm also sick to death of the "I'm going to be in the area in the next few hours/days/minutes, and would love to "hook up" with you". I can't believe I'm saying this, but I am NOT that kind of girl!
Which I think means it's time for you to raise the bar in order to garner a response. You'd have to be pretty special to get my attention to begin with, and then most certainly intelligent, nice, and special to keep it (as you can see by all the men who've come and gone in the blink of an eye, because as I get to know them, I realize I don't like them, or the playtime was *not all that*.
Maybe it's just that I'm ready to be done with this whole "Ms Nichole, Barely-Dirty" sex blogging thing. I actually have been writing in another blog which is more personal, and less "sex / jerk off material" which I use as a "diary" or "therapy" more than anything. Most of the people who read my other blog are women - and gay men (mostly because I talk about my bi-sexuality in it, I'm sure).
I've never found a way just to be myself all of the time, to everyone I know. I spend most of my life hiding certain aspects of myself from various friends, acquaintances, and of course extended family. I'm actually kinda tired of it. It's exhausting, and when you're a girl who prides herself on being truthful and telling it like it is, it's a hard pill to swallow when you're constantly omitting things from your conversations and daily interactions with loved ones.
I think I'm also in need of a part time job. I don't really like not making any money, and although I love my children to death, I don't like spending every second with them. It's dumbing me down, and I can see myself going down a path that I don't care for, or believe in. I'm not the "barefoot and preggers" in the kitchen kinda girl.
One of the problems is that I have an over-inflated ego of myself & my worth, and would not want to work like a regular schmuck for a regular rate of pay. I also know that I would need something that keeps my attention, and that might be a constant learning experience, on many different topics.
I am *NOT* interested in pro-domination, even though I definitely thought long and hard about it, and boy would it be super easy money. That's part of my problem. Writing this blog, and getting these constant requests, shows me that I could easily set up a cookie cutter line of "clients" but it's just not me.
I have no idea what kind of a job would allow me to set my own hours, work from home or wherever, and would allow me to do it in the middle of the night if the mood struck.
So for those of you who have any coherent thoughts, or words of wisdom, I'd love to hear them. Otherwise, this just might be the end...
No say it isn't so! Sounds like you would do a great job doing just about anything. Good luck and best wishes.
ReplyDeleteI would love to read your personal blog. I think you should do what you want regarding this one, there is a time for it and a time for it to stop...let me know if I can read your other blog!
ReplyDeleteWith not knowing what your background is besides what I have read here, and based solely on that I suppose (which could very well be way off base), have you considered working with computers? Possibly doing web design or software testing? There are companies out there that would allow you to work from home. You would need to do some homework of course to find them, but it might be a worthwhile investment of your time and energy. On a completely different level, you have a gift for writing. You could always pick up writing short stories about whatever, not just what is written on here. When you have described your daily activities, due to the fact people were asking you questions about it, you were able to describe the details clear enough that we, your readers, felt as though we could "visually" see what you were writing--if that makes sense? Anywho, you have a clear gift for writing, and you could try something completely off the wall, like writing children stories? or not--getting published would be tough I suppose, not that I have experience there. Food for thought I guess. If you do decide to hang things up here, I just want to say thanks. You have "touched" on many things I have been curious about and I feel as though I have a clearer understanding of what I actually am interested in, even though you had no idea you were doing that. Which is kind of cool.
ReplyDeleteCheers
You can't stop because I just found you!
ReplyDeleteJust kidding, of course. I love strong confident women. Seeing that is what you are, I know you will take this blog where your heart leads. My best wishes for whatever direction life takes you.
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Nichole I think blending and blurring lines is fine, but in this instance and for safety reasons I'd rather you kept your two lives apart. No photos of u and the kids etc., I know is harder to maintain 2 blogs but I think you should.
ReplyDeleteThanks for showing me the other blog. Its riveting.
I sent you an email a few days ago but I just read your blog and found out that you maynot want to do this anymore!! Ackkkk. I just found you a few months ago and thought we hit it off very well, but because my schedule is a bit overbooked, I may fall into that category of men that you don't want!!!
ReplyDeleteHope you will reconsider, but if not I do understand. I too prefer quality over quantity and you were pretty spectacular.